today this girl in one of my classes was talking about what size her jeans were and she was like” oh my god my jeans are a size 0! Fat girl problems!!” I really wanted to smack her. Honestly other girls would die to be a size 0 jeans and your complaining about being a size 0! be happy that your that size cause there are girls out there starving themselves right now to be that size 0.
Now we are walking side by side but none of us are saying a word. Our song playing but it’s not the same. I’m upset And so r u. Why is it so hard to forge everything. Why can’t I just let u be happy? I don’t want toley him go he is or was my first love. Maybe it’s because I know what he does when he hurts people he makes them feel so shitty and he just acts like he is so cool but it hurts. I think it also funny for 2 years I’ve told you how I felt about him and now your with him. Like wtf people say that’s not a true just wish it wasn’t true:
I hate that she’s so much prettier than me it’s like all my exs go for her. She has that personality that makes them like her. She’s so beautiful it’s easy for them to fall for her. I just wish that was me. It sucks it reall does I wish I was good enough for him. I left everyone for him I don’t even think about it i just leave I get attached and become so focused on something and I someone I forget about my hurt and it sucks. Now I’m to afraid to get attached. Everyone just going to leave me anymore. I’m just goin to wait for the guy who wants me not me wanting him. I’ll be shy. I’m changing again because it hurts to much to be nice. I’m just done being screwed over and hurt. It’s time for change and its time to focus on school and me till next year at least because that how I feel and want to feel. Sorry for the rant.
What’s on my mind? I’m fucking tired. I’m tired of caring for people who don’t give a shit about me. I’m tired of waiting for texts that won’t come, and thinking things will be different, yet they never change. I’m tired of giving out chances, only to be let down. I’m tired of putting forth 100%…